ditttheengineer

It's the gift of a life time

2008-07-30T00:18:00.000-07:00

I dont understand what the god just gave me now. I just felt blessed, look a like everything i touch become gold, for all the sudden. Be in this position where i am now maybe just a dreaming for any one perhaps not very easy to get in this door.

You know how hard i tried, how painfull the sacrifices, how cruel the fights, and cannot imagines how i became so exhausted. For a momment i was plan to quit, i could not did this any more i felt useless and hopeless, be a run away quite maybe the best for me at that time.

I just lock the page and prepare to walk out the arena, with all guilty and a loser impression in my face. I walked out with silence just walk out without put a look to my back i just run away and run as fast i can. I go back to where i belong, it was just the save mode decision.

I never dreamed agan since that time, i just did my job and stared my head vision down to a ground level. at that time such save mode decision must be taken as win win solution to a risk taker like me. It was a best offer that i could reach.

I just forget my past efforts and look at my adventurer journey in more calm rhytm for the slow future. I said maybe i can go back if there are more opportunities in future but now know, i just released all the preassure and accepted the deal.

While i momment i was quit the fight and deal the calm peacefully momment in my life, i just felt peacefully but also stressfully because i am a warriors who like the adventures.

A nature of warriors not ended by surrender the fight, all for the sudden in a war there is alot of fights waits for the warriors. I was struck out from the peacefully place to a single fight again, the mother of earth said : are you ready? deal or no deal!

I have no time to think i used to be a decision risk taker, i said with my quick calculations ran shortly and fastly for the decision of a life time i took it, i took the fight hey mother earth. I shall joined your masaccre.

The hot tea is served now in my Jumbo Jet 767 500 heading for the airport in next 3 hours. I just remember the gift, the scenes and the journey. I love this fight. Any way.. any how..

It's the gift of a life time

the sequences

2008-07-30T00:15:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt trapped in multi sequences problems ..that bonded you in squirel legs mode scrapped you inside without no mercy..
Almost for one or two sec you cannot breathe then suddenly you surrendered and became a looser.
Trapped always define as a jam that block our way and our prespective. No one can figured how trapped became a traffic then a huge stop. Let say a intersection with out a traffic lamp. the arragement of 4 sections in beetween will screw up and suddenly a block road caused a trapped traffic jam.
Definitelly from that we can say we need a controller.. or a management to manage the flows, right? Even in emergency situation in traffic lamp broken we can saved and avoid the blocked road situation with a dicipline and patiences..
But sometimes people felt they are king and queens on their lives without realized they are alot of else lifes of others people.. then it become a EGO.. and un patience selfiss ness.?
Situation with a condition with out a controller often came to us in rush decision making with pressure.
With normal condition the traffic lamp controller on our problem management will still rules..
But with rush and pressured heavy condition maybe suddenly it will be broken by it. then we are totally blind..
People easily blamed on situation then become a zero result and tend to abandon away all the problems.. and run away.? But they arent dissapeared for all sudden, right. the problem still exist.
One by one is simple word but maybe hard to do.. with out traffic controller of our problems management it will be look alike a wistle of cop, in the middle of tousands horn.. useless..
One by one is about listen to your heart, in the middle of big noisy and preassured around you, the only voice you still can hear is your own heart.
Right..?
You are blind for awhile, but just close your eyes and believes that you have the guidances from inside your heart.. Stand still and whispered i can do it one by one.
One by one is a static sequence of nature, everything with a natural ryme will command smoothly as you can say i can do it. the traffic disappeared, the clouds clear the preassures released..
no one have same princips on this but always believe that one by one is you breathe..
trust your self, your heart, your mind.
Set free the power of competitiveness inside you and fear nothing..
Be presistance.. and finished all..
Even a everest you can conquer. You make your self a hero not any ones or any things else..
It is just one by one.. and Just do it.

a preface

2008-07-29T23:53:00.000-07:00

Preface

My name ardito umar mediatma, aka ditt, worked as world wide field engineer company servicing all company in all locations all arround the world, i was 1978 born in surabaya id, elementary in sd 1 jetisharjo yk, smpn 12 yk, smpn1 selong ntb, smun 3 semarang, itenas bdg, itb bandung.

Kind of bizzare i started a blog, in case of i dont knew what is the blog any way. but i stared and looked it as the pages of my life..
I will record it as simple as i wanna be and maybe usefull as the soft expression of me, during all my field and dangerous adventures of surviving this world
Perhaps.

Rgrds

ditttheengineer